Man, last few days or maybe weeks was hard as hell. Kids layed down with chickenpox for two weeks, than they went to school for about two days and back to bed with 39 C fever and Simona had fever for about week too. I was on the verge of being sick for more than week, now it seems that it’s going away for everyone.
I’ve decided 3 days ago to get sober and not to drink alcohol and I question, like true alcoholic, this decision multiple times a day and have second thougs maybe every hour. Like why I’m doing it, it was the only thing I ended work week with and I was looking to get a bottle of whisky and just relax at home (spoken like a true addict right there, only thing to look forward too in whole week was that fucking bottle). Yeah I know its not normal to drink, its just a marketing stunt, like that you need a big breakfast… But…
I’m also trying to get in better shape and loose weight and since I had stopped drinking my weight goes up… Like wtf? Shouldn’t it be the opposite? Yeah I know it’s just three days etc. but…
And to top it fucking off… I have found old Nerf gun today and decided to take a shot across whole apartment, maybe 15 meters, and point blank shot my son Edwin in the eye! They went to ER and he have some drops, but the eye is irritated and he’s in pain. Fucking stupid man, I’m feeling like the worst dad.
And why I post this? I don’t know, nobody will read it anyway…
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